only my own.

time is chasing you,
time is chasing you,
just the natural range,
or one you've set.
only your own.

embrace a breeze,
when there comes one.
dive into the hurricane,
a crucial balance.
only your own.

big part of living,
done all for the most important.
shall not be affectable,
by anything or anyone other.
only your own.

no one to rely on,
no one to rely on.
expectation in others disappoints.
only your own,
only your own.

only my own.

never judge a book by its cover.

has a gruesome life,

clouded your judgement?

losing all the ability to be honest,

leaving your heart cold.

sincere no more?

or is it,

education that ruined you.

such shame being borne with natural intelligence,

and charm.

yet so wrongly used.

perhaps too,

seen too much in life.

sucked it all in,

losing all trusts.

protecting too much?

whatever it is,

only one self would know.

never judge a book by its cover.

bad nor good.

going back home.

so it's my last breakfast here for this trip.

it was great!

had the trip i've always wanted.

same place for quite couple of times but this is by far the exact kind of bali escape i've always wished for.

i'd totally recommend Holiday Inn Resort, Baruna Bali (www.bali.holidayinn.com).

total pamper, the somewhat secluded beach area is at its best, getting absolutely everything you need in the premise alone does make you not want to leave the place throughout the trip!

room, facilities, and service is perfection.

ahh..can't wait for the next trip in November.

a million thanks @adilonln; one of the very few childhood mate i have and absolutely the best!

time to go back to life, family & friends, and my baby.

till the next, much love!

xx

all is alright.

can't quite figure out,
what all these are.

the unrecognized trust,
a natural faith.
that all gonna be just fine,
through each every bad.
unshakable.

the heaviest quake,
the biggest flood,
the driest drought,
the hottest flame.
might come before me.

somewhat all figured out,
went through or called for.
having this little belief,
posted me today.
the beautiful experiences.

all is alright.

few biggest wishes,
unreachable for now.
which when kept sincere,
shall all come to past.
and kept for a ravishing future.

bit by bit thus making life even more whole.

love one another.

when it's stride by stride,

yet thousands of it.

you can't help but wonder,

when are you going to reach a point.

the destination aimed.

there will always only be two picks.

to go on walking,

rests in between is fine.

temptations of a short-cut,

unfailingly present.

if done the right way,

satisfaction is invaluable.

to quit and surrender,

some might feel complacent of current.

most will edge in self pity,

seeing selfs as failures.

results in a permanent isolation,

just the most terrible poverty.

others to be affected without known.

freedom of own choices,

is what we are borne with.

however to be fed and filled with love,

starts from a happiness within.

a big obligation towards closest ones,

the grand way of giving back.

choose wise,

love one another.

for life is created good not to be destroyed.

forget but unforgotten.

Yesterday was a different day.

I lay here today at ease,
Drinking my old-fashioned Lemonade.
All doing the same around me,
Surely some with a mood otherwise.
Same reason.

An escape is just priceless,
To get away.
From well,
Or worse.
Little crunch time.

Tomorrow will still be the same.

Will do exactly what I do today,
Nothing.
Just be grateful,
Being here.
In a world I built within this canopy.

In which to go back to reality.

The brilliance of life,
Ridden innocently.
Ever unpredictable,
Led with patience and joy.
Wouldn't trade for anyone's.

What I know for now,
I'm laying here,
Still with my old-fashioned Lemonade.
With a chance of tranquil,
It's well alright.

Look forward to resume reality unforgotten.

a great good morning to all,

happy eid mubarak to all who celebrates.

i'm enjoying my short break here,

isolate myself whenever i want to.

friends are also around whenever,

walked on streets a lot!

it must have been the longest walk of my life yesterday!

anyways,

you'll be able to see what i've been writing here.

hope you guys will enjoy,

lemme know you're here.

'like' or share on fb, retweet, leave a comment,

subscribe too if you would.

much much love,

xx

ever thine, mine, and ours.

you may shatter me,

and it's not even a significance.

for now it's the time,

gifted for you and me.

to sow.

i may shatter you,

and it's not even a significance.

for soon to come,

rest of life for you and me.

to yield.

life may shatter us,

and it's not even a significance.

for the greatest journey,

is already yours and mine.

to keep.

ever thine, mine, and ours.

without a doubt.

today declared loud,

tomorrow retracted quietly.

way too weak of a thought,

for something this nefarious.

big mistake.

one man's reckless thought,

affects millions of minds.

nobody would know,

real reason why of such act.

however definitely not noble.

a threat to the antagonist,

greater shame for the protagonist.

loss for everybody,

only a win for the feign man.

the shallow sudden popularity.

it was not the religion,

that destroyed that day.

one God,

one people.

sadly plus a few cruel lost ones.

with no reason,

should a party be blamed as a whole.

for both sing the same hymns,

worship the same Father in heaven.

most importantly read the same Book.

only titled differently,

without a doubt.

gonna be leaving jakarta tomorrow morning,

to a rather secluded place (i hope secluded enough).

unwind from this sometimes-can-be-very-tiring-city,

will write and post soon!

xx

be still.

nature of every human,
never,
or to be fairer,
simply hard to be satisfied.
pretty much with everything.

sometimes we find,
we have no choice at all.
other times,
with one too many.
none feels good.

to choose,
based on doing the right thing,
should end the dilemma.
however doing it,
isn't so easy.

having a still heart,
doesn't come naturally.
at least not for me.
this time around i'm learning,
do wish me luck.

to be still.

exciting upcoming project!

very lucky me to know quite a few musicians in my life; will be collaborating with 2 of them exactly

(@hanzleo for one) with the things i write, and their music, of course.

more updates to come, but! so. very. excited!

xx

greetings!

so hello,

anybody that would be visiting here.

you might or not read my notes before,

been writing much on facebook,

guess it's time for a proper blog!

very excited,

do comment,

follow me on twitter (@erephael),

if otherwise,

thank you anyways!

note:  posts before this, they're imported from my facebook notes;

more to come above!

xx

the strength we have.

'simplicity both fond of,
hasn't been presenting itself.
start of this journey,
has been stoney.
just don't mind.

shall hope for the rain,
after this drought.
shall hope for the rainbow,
after this rain.
inevitably ours.

and through it,
till a conclusion.
got only one another,
else in world might close on us.
yet perfect still.

faith for each,
ever full.
smile through darkness,
rejoice to victory.
holding on to a trust.

end shall be lavish,
side by side.
together grasping,
on a stare so profound.
just yours and mine.

started from the strength we have.

no other.

'im terrified because,
i love you.
the heart aches,
while all is perfect.
what will be the end.

take it slow,
roller coaster.
im overwhelmed,
none ability left.
for an ounce of control.

it is so free,
i feel trapped.
all too good,
grew a fear of lost.
save me.

my weaks,
you cover in strength.
my disbeliefs,
you cover in faith.
each time you're here.

unfailingly,
winning me over and over.
left no coward,
again and again.
the bold you're teaching me.

im all here,
nothing else looked for.
because you're perfect,
just the one.
all doubts made vanished.

thank you for teaching me love.