i need to.

sometimes,

like a huge wave we never saw coming,

we find ourselves,

just completely broken.

absolutely into pieces.

for some more delicate ones,

the world feels over.

i try not to be that weak,

though completely kissing the ground.

i try to be strong for me.

each day waking up,

and forcing to sleep yearning.

it's like each day when there's new joy,

really feels only half good.

they don't even matter anymore.

i miss everything we do,

the places we go,

conversations we had.

the way you look at me,

you being you.

i'm not lost,

just less clarity without you.

and for my case,

that's bad enough.

i need to stop missing you.

like the string quartet,

complex yet beautiful.

that will be the start and an end,

to our story,

that's forever stuck in the middle.

no turning back,

no going forward.

soulmates.

it is like the clouds,

we float around,

minding nobody’s business.

then unintentionally within a time,

open up and pour.

the way i look at it,

we have and made known,

if lucky,

several soulmates in our lives.

placed for different purposes.

some as friends,

some as lovers,

some as partners.

all of them in which,

we were inevitably,

bound to meet.

all significant,

just for different reasons.

once in a while,

met with a truly remarkable one.

one that perhaps we remember more than others,

from past lives possibly.

that briefly known but feels a lifetime.

all that dejavu,

all that intensity,

all that familiarity.

super comfotable,

but damn confusing.

the question being,

what will it be?

it is crucial to not misconstrue,

nor brought too much by the humanly feelings.

to wisely decide.

the never-ending riddle.

the friend by the least.

will forever I love.